disclaimer
she ROARS
leave before she bites =)
*don't say she never warn you
Monday, April 27, 2009
For my 21st
i want...- Google phone/ LG Renoir (i'm drooling over the first one daily)
- Bag good enough for school (no browns pls)
- Puma touch screen watch/ watch
- iTouch
- Polaroid camera
- A sponsored holiday getaway (genting or batam will be gd enuf)
- Mountain bike (has no idea why)
- Shoes (Heels, pumps, running shoes, birkies madrid..)
- Lingerie? (jus kidding..haha)
- MONEY would be the best (the more the merrier!)
- to pass my semester well
i know i'm totally thick skin by doing this. but.... its saves you the trouble of getting me something right?
Sunday, April 26, 2009
i'm getting egg-cited!
i've made my first step. proceeding on to the next few steps.
just hope things go well =)
Monday, April 20, 2009
me irritation level rose by three notches! that only happens in the office.
me 21st is coming... and i still have no plans. or should i say, it always bounced back.
i need a planner.
me hp bill shot over $100. thanks to me itchy fingers for going online evry now and then.
and the tons of messages sent.
and definitely the tons of mobile services i subscribe.
me short hair is not here nor there. time to do something yet again.
me never lose much hair during the few months on extension
me lose the hair i never drop during the three months in just a salon wash.
me scared the hairdresser and meself off.
me will not do extensions again.
unless in crucial circumstances.
me is shifitng into a new space.
me will drop the link soon.
me has not shower yet.
goodbye world.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
i'm irritated with the weather.
i'm irritated with my assignment.
i'm irritated by the childish and wishy washy chats from you! so much worse than me.
my laser mouth showed its powers again and shot its target. HIT ON!
i am not going to say sorry. B-L-E-A-H
i miss f-b-t-p lar.
ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, April 13, 2009
declare me bankrupt as of today.
received the letter that is going to change my life.
financially burdened.
two education loans to repay.
how the hell am i supposed to repay them all?
fuck.
sickening piece of news.
with the salary i'm withdrawing currently, and after all the monthly deductions of the expenses and school fees, i'll be left with less than $200 monthly.
how do i survive?
all this is because of the 2 certificates i want. i've gotten the first and now pursuing the second.
is these all worth it?
i cant help but to cry.
i know i cant wallow in self pity.
its time to come out with a solution.
and the best i could think of would be - to get a part time job.
so if anyone out there has a part time job, call me. would appreciate your kindness and helpfulness.
and i feel alone. with no one to turn to.
i can only continue to mask my smile.
drown my sorrows. and not burden anyone.
no matter how many sunflowers will not brighten me up anymore.
what would it be.. to slit the wrist.. and let the blood flow.. would that ease the pain and resolve all issues? or even, get knocked down by the car, ending everything on the spot? tho i prefer to sleep away with a silent goodbye.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
feel like shifting to livejournal.. permanently.
last night's chongpang bbq meal caused me diarrhoea. BAH
someone owes me a cookies and cream milkshake that is as delicious as ben and jerry's!
and i owe someone a meal -.-"
Saturday, April 11, 2009
sorta addicted to the beach. its a mini getaway to the bustling city life where i've to care about my world. time is a standstill when i am there. its especially good if there's a good sun or breeze.
i almost witnessed a boy nearly drowned in front of his friends.
his friends thought it funny to pull him head down into the water.
the boy immediately screamed for help while his friends were laughing away.
it was lucky the lifeguard was nearby to put a stop and turn the situation.
just a note to all: love your friends like you love yourself. be mindful of your actions towards others.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
you are really stressed up over assignments in the middle of the night.
with MSN status as appearing offline.
there are 2 scenarios.
first scenario.you suddenly receive an offline msg to ask why are you not online.
you start to panic over your offline status. but it was what you wanted - appearing offline.
you got irritated by that msg and you replied, letting the sender know that you are irritated.
and of course immediately, you got your apology.
still you feel irritated by the sender's actions.
second scenario.you saw your bestie online while you were acting offline.
you immediately give a buzz.
and the conversations started to flow.
with loads of laughters and telepathy going on.
you felt that assignments are not important anymore. chatting is.
and that you've wiped out the person you got irritated with earlier on.
and your last message to bestie was that you cant fall asleep anymore cause the conversations awake your senses.
this made you realise the difference between a bestie and a normal friend.
however, you want to apologise for your rudeness, but you dont know how.
BAH!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
i'm either suffering from rashes or HFMD. praying hard its not the latter.
my itchy bumps all around.
i had the urge to scratch like a gila monkey on the way home from work. but i do have an image to maintain. wahahaha.
do you realise i am more and more pampered?
Sunday, April 5, 2009
i felt for you. totally. its still raw for you but i do know your undying spirit. you just need to get out of your house more often, with new activities to make you forget.
i can only hope you are well. and that is all i can do as a friend. or maybe less than a friend
April Fool.
1st April was the nicest day of April. ladies night was great. laughed till i was breathless and the stomach ached. i'm awaiting for the end of the month outing again!
2nd day of april was grandpa's 1st death anni. i miss him. the grandpa who suffered quite alot and one whom i only get to see once a year, sometimes even once every 2 years. i know that he is doing bette where he is now. R.I.P. ah gong.
3rd april
boss sucks. big time.
with the office equipments all getting grumpy and with me being the only "technician + doctor", he chose to be one of the office equipments for be to troubleshoot.
freaking annoying.
me as a crybaby, ended up sobbing silently at the comfort of my table.
one thing about german boss, especially this "equipment" is that he spits names like nobody's business. from idiot, blind to stupid, the vocabulary gets better.
i wanted him to know that i was upset so i did not even make a single coffee for him. let him choke on his own coffee.
2 days later and i'm still brewing mad with him.
once i get my bonus, i shall leave. as someone says, to show that i'm mad at him.