Saturday, March 14, 2009
you know your day is screwed even before it has even started when you hear naggings and fire spitting outside you safe heaven room.
you know that it is none of your business and you will get into deep shit when you step in to interfere.
however, you also know that you are at the brim of controlling those frustrations inside you.
and you know you have joined in the fire spittings when you opened the cap of your frustration bottle.
you know you very much hate the after effects and that it brings your mood a few notches down.
you have regretted your actions but you are still brooding and fuming that you wont want to say you are sorry.
after all these, you wish you have somewhere to go.
deep down..
you know your eyes are too dry for tears, you know that alcohol is not the right poison for you, and you know that no amount of laps in the pool will drown feelings. you know that after taking mindless walks you will still be holding on to the key that will lead you back to where you belong - home.