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*don't say she never warn you

Friday, February 29, 2008

that slap on the face still stings. that taste of blood lingers. its swollen. inner n outer.

biasness. it was never fair. never treated as part of them. never belong.

N-E-V-E-R

should have jumped off the building.

stop crying. damn it.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

me hair's black. B-L-A-C-K. black black black. totally black. i cant get used to it. but.. to prevent myself from being barred from takin exams, tts de way to do it.

its the start of the study week now. the FINAL lap of poly life.

sat was the last n FINAL presentation in NYP. Entrepreneurship. oh wells, wonderful job done by the presenters, char n kenn. as for me.. my presentation skills nt gd lei.. haha. its kinda bad to be de 1st grp. even tho we met wiz some hiccups, i wana thk all grp members for the good job done!

took pics wiz de beloved grp. tts all de memories i can capture. sobs!

sakura buffet wiz char n kenn. de rest of de members cldn make it. one rd of food ald killed us all. stupid kenn n his games. i still owe him a forfeit.

my life's changing soon. i'm stepping into adulthood in less than 2 weeks time. OMG!! i'm totally nervous.

wanshi... stop thinking and get to studying!!

to be seeing silhouettes of someone u've been trying all ur best to forget aint helping tings. the sights left the heart thumping fast. subconscious mind is playing tricks, i guess.

Monday, February 18, 2008

cramps n gastric cn take life away. almost. its torturous. nt tt i nv eat, i've gt no appetite.but minimal food consumption.

entre proj at suzie's hse. some miscomm caused me n char to land at white sands whr we shop. cab over to her hse cos we din noe hw to go over. pasir ris ain't my turf. beautiful hse she has. started proj n we managed to hab fun n finishin onli ard 9 plus. ard 6 hrs plus of wking on our prototype.

WE FINALLY SUCCEEDED!!
so in love wiz our end pdt =)
entre proj is very fun!

its funny how my insides will jingle n butterflies will grow wen in contact wiz u, even thru phone. ain't the first time ald.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

its a great dae for me =)

went to wk. did minor chores. help send stuffs to tiong bahru. whole journey thru n fro dhoby ghaut to tiong bahru was an adventure series. confidently hopped onto a wrong train towards pasir ris instead of to boon lay wen gg tiong bahru. onli realisin it 2 or 3 stops after city hall. hee.

managed to find de central plaza wen i reach. clever me. hehe. found de Nets office. pressed de bell for quite a few times but de lady doesn acknowledge me. stood outside patiently till a mother n a son came by. de son jus opened de door n went in to the office. i was totally embarrassed la. all along de door was waitin for me to open it n i jus stand outside pressing de doorbell onli. so ma lu!

on de way back to office, got lost while searchin for de rite train to dhoby ghaut. city hall agn. there mus be sumtin wrong wiz me n directions. it ain't de first time i'm lost. gg 20 yrs old n i cn get lost everywhr i go, n its onli teeny weeny spore. m i a gundu or wad?

met up wiz lynn dearest for our post-vdae celeb. headed to paragon's spaghaddies. a few lks at the menu but nt to our liking. tot cld pop over to ishak's but he ended wk ald. so left de rest. sat outside paragon to decide our nx pitstop. indecisive us decided to check de directory for restaurants. finali decided pasta cafe.

pasta cafe. wonderful place wiz quiet ambience. ordered quite a fair bit. creamy mushrm soup, mussels, slip lobster penne, mush spagh. desserts was oreo cheesecake n a forget-the-name cream strawberry cake. delicious meal or was it cos we were too hungry? hee.

exchg pressies after tt. i received so mani tings from here la!! i'm so guilty!! wad i received frm her:

3 cupcakes
2 pairs of earrings
1 robot necklace
a boxful of Yupi gummy sweets (reminds me of someone)
Elf makeup - eyeshadow, eyelash curler, blusher, eyeliner, lip gloss, lip shine gloss
Pooh bear huggable
handmade card (made me cry. brings back memories.)

i'm dumbfolded by de amt of pressies wiz onli a $35 budget we gaf each other. i received jus frm her! totally love every single of the items i receive! gaf her pressies frm me. tho it wasn alot, but i hope she likes it. nx time, i'm gona do more!

headed off to walk ard. wanted to buy a bag, but cos it wasn tt attractive wen i was abt to pay at the cashier's, decided against it. she bought her bread n sushi. i bought a jap muachi. very nice. but red bean was too swt. headed to art fren in search for my proj stuff. headed to lk for yusmah at NAC. took some pics b4 we bid farewell.

headed to F1 fair outside ngee ann. drool while lking at the beautiful racing cars. tis is a gd chance to get close to these cars as i've no financial capabilities to watch the F1 race. home swt home after tt for steamboat wiz family.

to lynn: thx for all the wonderful pressies u gaf me. so much efforts was put into it, i'll cherish them all. much appreciated. its my blessings to find such a fren like u. it doesn matter whr u are or hw busy u r, i noe u'll be there. gazillions thank yous ain't enuf. but i wan u to noe, thx for walking into my life. thx for the every little moments we shared. i know tt we're gona face another phase of our lives in less than a mth's time, but still, u'll always be my dearest fren i dun wana lose.

finally.. let images do the talking.

Friday, February 15, 2008

one proj left. finali took a breather for awhile. din attend sch todae. went to wk instead. rdshow nt fun at all. left early. finali collected my long overdue paycheck. at las i cn wash my hands off tt place. no regrets leavin nac at all. still, i miss my ex-colleagues.

managed to finish buyin my vdae pressies. crammed in 2 hrs of studyin. met ky for my first meal of de dae. some wld be shocked as to hw such a non-stop eater lk me cn eat a meal a dae. i'm amazed too.

yest's vdae was lonely. cleared imc proj, dragged my tired feet hm to slp since nobody to celeb tis special dae wiz. but...tmr the dearest is gona make it up =)

funi hw ky ask if i've got anyone new in my life. hurhur. dun wori.. u'll be de first to noe if i hab de okie?? wun be lk tt time.

my beanie blue teddy bear tt accompany me to slp for ard 2 yrs spoilt. it feels weird nw tt nt habin it ard wen i slp. if anyone noes whr to buy non-furry beanie bears tell me can?? nid another huggable size pillow oso cos my mum threw mine away. nid a new bag.. straps of 2 of my bags are tearing apart.

i tot my ankle has healed.. but every twist n turn brings pain... nw.. de other one aches.. soon.. i'll be a real elephant.

i wana watch the F1 race.. any interested parties??

Monday, February 11, 2008

back to sch after a teeny weeny brk. the feeling's diff. nt in de mood. tts even worse wen i've gotta go back to sch even tho mon is no sch dae.

bai nian wiz boss. ang bao agn. nt bad. collected pay cheque. queued all de way to realise tt i cant cash out cos its a citibank cheque. i cn go bang de wall. but luckily i wasn wasted.. did my ibanking stuffs. 2 loads off my shoulders for nw.

kinda piss to noe tt de pay cheque frm nac i've been waiting for more den 2 mths is nt ready. tho its a small sum of money, still, i worked hard for it. u all telling me tt dere's no pay cheque. its like. wtf. de lady who promised to call me back din do tt. screw her upside dwn. i shld heed de advice to rpt to MOM. cn get more moolah den. *evil*.

i wana rant on n on n on...............

i'm suffering frm deep bouts of monday blues.

somethin tt i tot of which some agrees

a look at you cause my eyes to be dirty
to hear your voice brings me goosebumps
when you are around, my sensors and radars turns faulty.

no mention of names

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Gong Xi Fa Cai to all!! have a smooth sailing year ahead! ^-^

packed wiz activities for de past wk. half hell and half fun-filled week i shld sae.

its bad tt till now, i'm onli slpin for less than 5 hrs each dae.

sun was a long dae of entre proj. financial n figures. cracked de guys' brains while me n char jus tried to catch wad dey were sayin n tinkin of wad to eat. heehee. stayed till 9 b4 i rushed dwn to chinatown to meet peh n francis. walked ard, squeezed ard de crowd, eat some snacks but dere wasn much of a cny atmosphere to me. headed hm to rush projs till mrg.

mon n tues was clearin proj, proj rehearsals n proj presentations. onli able to slp for less than 3 hrs daily. finali cleared half.

wed, cny eve. totally unexpected series of bad fortune for a few of us. entre rpt was screwed up but luckily she accepted our disorganized rpt. i hate our sch's printin shop aunte wiz long hair. pr proj till 5 plus wiz me dozin off awhile. sorry peeps. rushed hm for reunion dinner.

after dinner met wiz karen n her bf victor to watch fireworks. peh n francis met us ltr. headed to dolphin for drinks b4 catchin de las few trains hm. all these activities definitely got me in de mood for new yr.

thurs. cny day one. hse visiting. still lack of slp. hate de scorching sun. went hm to shower b4 headin out at nite. met peeps (ivy, karen, subi, yz, peh n francis) for movie marathon. de one who told us nt to be late was very late. clever francis booked tix for de wrong date n hab to bear de charges. haha. first movie, Kungfu Dunk. totally hilarious. love jay chou's aloofness n story plot tho its abit lame. funny factor is definitely dere. "tofu, tofu, i wana eat tofu" is a funi song.

hk cafe supper. food tasted yucks. food was cooked in a rush n some uncooked. waitress rushed us till she got de wrong orders. bad bad bad. rushed off for 2nd movie, ah long movie. funny but i fell aslp wiz too much fighting. after tt was waiting for time to pass by to catch de first bus hm. me n yz had to wait till ard 630 for our rides hm so ended up slpin at dhoby ghuat mrt station.

napped an hr plus b4 headin to cny visiting agn. sprained my ankle n its swollen n hurts badly now. wonder hw i cont my cny visits tmr. hehe.

enjoy all de time left b4 i had left b4 its all abt studies agn.

disney on ice anyone??

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Sunday, February 3, 2008

typing wiz my eyes almost closed.

i'm dead. no ms office to wk wiz. my laptop cn be thrown away. some kind souls sponsor me for de software. pi***ed ones oso cn.

packed to the brim on projs and work. mon to sun r meant for proj meetings. whr's de little breathin time wen needed?

grandpop landed in hosp. reason unknown yet.

burstling wiz words and emotions. how i wish u knew.

歌曲：失忆 歌手：张韶涵 专辑：ang 5.0

下雨后还给蓝天了晴朗
在分手后不算亏欠
跌跌撞撞的缠绵
认认真真的实现
这样谁不流泪

就当作最后亲吻吧
释放在这事件中不算惩罚
热烈热烈的沉沦
冷冷淡淡的抽身
我算是残忍的吗

我如何假装
我心里不再有你
沉溺后清醒
你却是异常的平静
习惯慢慢失忆
这样就能转移自己

我发现我爱你
就在这一瞬间
倾盆而下的却是
你不安的阴天
毕竟我不慷慨
我并不想害自己

就当作最后亲吻吧
释放在这事件中不算惩罚
热烈热烈的沉沦
冷冷淡淡的抽身
我算是残忍的吗

我如何假装
我心里不再有你
沉溺后清醒
你却是异常的平静
习惯慢慢失忆
以为这样就能转移自己

我发现我爱你
就在这一瞬间
倾盆而下的却是
你不安的阴天
毕竟我不慷慨
我并不想害自己
我不想害自己

我已经失去你
在没有你爱我的那一天
我如何拯救自己

我发现我爱你
就在这一瞬间
沉迷后清醒
你却是异常的平静
习习惯慢慢失忆
以为这样就能转移自己

我发现我爱你
就在这一瞬间
倾盆而下的却是
你不安的阴天
毕竟我不慷慨
我并不想害自己

Friday, February 1, 2008

hell week 2

mon was work. love the after work gathering - celeb ky's belated bdae. peeps included: ky, xy, subi, peh n francis. kbox buffet dinner at cinne. first was loading of food into the empty tummy. den to sing. definitely enjoyed myself wiz dem. i wan more kbox!

headed to timbre @ substation after tt wiz ky, peh n francis. red wine, live music, lovely env n peeps. not forgetting de thin crisp cheese onli pizza. definite a plus. i wan more! wasn able to catch de las bus hm so hopped over to bugis bar for another rd. heehee. onli beer n chips. cab hm after tt.

tues to thurs was plainly sch n more sch. routine is nv leave sch b4 930. loaded wiz projs. many of us hab bcum panda. thx char for always waiting for me to go hm.

crm presentation was screwup. first time i feel so pissed n low after de presentation. wad it shows is tt nt everyone in de grp noes abt de proj well. reflects badly on de grp.

on a lighter note, hr rehearsal was definitely entertaining =)

wad does one do wen they are in an all time low mood?

solution: do sumtin to de hair. trim it. gaf it some pamper tmt. i'm gona start revivin my dead hairs nw. eyebrow trimming too.

seems like doin sumtin to my hair has bcum one of de ways for me to forget abt tings n make myself beta. de more low i'm feeling, de more i'll cut.

i gotta stand so near.. oohlala.. u've got my heart fluttering.. ^-^

small eyes.. i like