jusme

2009-05-21T14:19:00.004+08:00

2009-05-09T01:01:00.002+08:00

woots!!

one more week to me bdae!

and i've received my first bdae pressie!
and i'm heard wind about 3 more of my pressie! heeehee

first is from Hairball and its a surprise!
second is from dearest JacJac.... and she got me La Senza voucher = lingerie!! wahaha.
third would be Pierre Cardin set from Ah Nat. another lingerie. i din know that that would be such a catch for you ladoes. wahaha.
and the last wind i heard... from the MB ladies, a watch.

fulfill my other wishes please??
teeheehee.
i sure am thick skinned.

FYI.
there's no theme to this party. wear what you like.
i'm gonna camp there wiz a few others. so stayovers are allowed. wahaha.

Food: confirm all BBQ Halal. as requested.
Booze: Prata is bringing his MANA. heard wind that another is bringing the flammable.
i'm going to drink plain water or juice. I QUIT!?

dearest friends with a car and the time to spare, please contact me. i would need help. terima kasih!
and it would be greatly appreciated if there's more hands to offer for help =)

2009-04-27T00:28:00.006+08:00

For my 21st

i want...

Google phone/ LG Renoir (i'm drooling over the first one daily)
Bag good enough for school (no browns pls)
Puma touch screen watch/ watch
iTouch
Polaroid camera
A sponsored holiday getaway (genting or batam will be gd enuf)
Mountain bike (has no idea why)
Shoes (Heels, pumps, running shoes, birkies madrid..)
Lingerie? (jus kidding..haha)
MONEY would be the best (the more the merrier!)
to pass my semester well

i know i'm totally thick skin by doing this. but.... its saves you the trouble of getting me something right?

2009-04-26T23:34:00.000+08:00

i'm getting egg-cited!

i've made my first step. proceeding on to the next few steps.

just hope things go well =)

2009-04-20T22:27:00.002+08:00

me irritation level rose by three notches! that only happens in the office.

me 21st is coming... and i still have no plans. or should i say, it always bounced back.
i need a planner.

me hp bill shot over $100. thanks to me itchy fingers for going online evry now and then.
and the tons of messages sent.
and definitely the tons of mobile services i subscribe.

me short hair is not here nor there. time to do something yet again.
me never lose much hair during the few months on extension
me lose the hair i never drop during the three months in just a salon wash.
me scared the hairdresser and meself off.
me will not do extensions again.
unless in crucial circumstances.

me is shifitng into a new space.
me will drop the link soon.
me has not shower yet.

goodbye world.

2009-04-19T00:36:00.004+08:00

i'm irritated with the weather.
i'm irritated with my assignment.
i'm irritated by the childish and wishy washy chats from you! so much worse than me.
my laser mouth showed its powers again and shot its target. HIT ON!
i am not going to say sorry. B-L-E-A-H
i miss f-b-t-p lar.

ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-13T23:35:00.003+08:00

declare me bankrupt as of today.
received the letter that is going to change my life.

financially burdened.
two education loans to repay.
how the hell am i supposed to repay them all?
fuck.
sickening piece of news.
with the salary i'm withdrawing currently, and after all the monthly deductions of the expenses and school fees, i'll be left with less than $200 monthly.
how do i survive?

all this is because of the 2 certificates i want. i've gotten the first and now pursuing the second.
is these all worth it?

i cant help but to cry.
i know i cant wallow in self pity.
its time to come out with a solution.
and the best i could think of would be - to get a part time job.
so if anyone out there has a part time job, call me. would appreciate your kindness and helpfulness.

and i feel alone. with no one to turn to.
i can only continue to mask my smile.
drown my sorrows. and not burden anyone.
no matter how many sunflowers will not brighten me up anymore.
what would it be.. to slit the wrist.. and let the blood flow.. would that ease the pain and resolve all issues? or even, get knocked down by the car, ending everything on the spot? tho i prefer to sleep away with a silent goodbye.

2009-04-12T19:57:00.003+08:00

feel like shifting to livejournal.. permanently.

last night's chongpang bbq meal caused me diarrhoea. BAH

someone owes me a cookies and cream milkshake that is as delicious as ben and jerry's!
and i owe someone a meal -.-"

2009-04-11T02:33:00.003+08:00

sorta addicted to the beach. its a mini getaway to the bustling city life where i've to care about my world. time is a standstill when i am there. its especially good if there's a good sun or breeze.

i almost witnessed a boy nearly drowned in front of his friends.
his friends thought it funny to pull him head down into the water.
the boy immediately screamed for help while his friends were laughing away.
it was lucky the lifeguard was nearby to put a stop and turn the situation.
just a note to all: love your friends like you love yourself. be mindful of your actions towards others.

2009-04-08T10:57:00.002+08:00

you are really stressed up over assignments in the middle of the night.
with MSN status as appearing offline.

there are 2 scenarios.

first scenario.
you suddenly receive an offline msg to ask why are you not online.
you start to panic over your offline status. but it was what you wanted - appearing offline.
you got irritated by that msg and you replied, letting the sender know that you are irritated.
and of course immediately, you got your apology.
still you feel irritated by the sender's actions.

second scenario.
you saw your bestie online while you were acting offline.
you immediately give a buzz.
and the conversations started to flow.
with loads of laughters and telepathy going on.
you felt that assignments are not important anymore. chatting is.
and that you've wiped out the person you got irritated with earlier on.
and your last message to bestie was that you cant fall asleep anymore cause the conversations awake your senses.

this made you realise the difference between a bestie and a normal friend.
however, you want to apologise for your rudeness, but you dont know how.
BAH!

2009-04-07T00:23:00.002+08:00

i'm either suffering from rashes or HFMD. praying hard its not the latter.
my itchy bumps all around.
i had the urge to scratch like a gila monkey on the way home from work. but i do have an image to maintain. wahahaha.

do you realise i am more and more pampered?

2009-04-05T21:41:00.003+08:00

i felt for you. totally. its still raw for you but i do know your undying spirit. you just need to get out of your house more often, with new activities to make you forget.

i can only hope you are well. and that is all i can do as a friend. or maybe less than a friend

2009-04-05T12:44:00.002+08:00

April Fool.

1st April was the nicest day of April. ladies night was great. laughed till i was breathless and the stomach ached. i'm awaiting for the end of the month outing again!

2nd day of april was grandpa's 1st death anni. i miss him. the grandpa who suffered quite alot and one whom i only get to see once a year, sometimes even once every 2 years. i know that he is doing bette where he is now. R.I.P. ah gong.

3rd april
boss sucks. big time.
with the office equipments all getting grumpy and with me being the only "technician + doctor", he chose to be one of the office equipments for be to troubleshoot.
freaking annoying.
me as a crybaby, ended up sobbing silently at the comfort of my table.
one thing about german boss, especially this "equipment" is that he spits names like nobody's business. from idiot, blind to stupid, the vocabulary gets better.
i wanted him to know that i was upset so i did not even make a single coffee for him. let him choke on his own coffee.
2 days later and i'm still brewing mad with him.
once i get my bonus, i shall leave. as someone says, to show that i'm mad at him.

2009-03-30T23:29:00.002+08:00

this assignment is driving me crazy.
i'm on the verge of dropping the module. HELP!
i've 8 journals to read and write yet i've started only on the first one! due date's on thursday.
kill me please!!

3rd day of exercise regime.
does 15 mins on the treadmill and 15 mins on the hula-hoops help?
thats all the free time i've got in my daily busy life. bah!

time to slog again.

side note: getting away from reality on wednesday night. let down the hair and its party time! even a dresscode! excited already. hopefully someone dresses up well.

2009-03-29T20:41:00.003+08:00

the new TV ad is real interesting and cute.
Campaign: Speak Mandarin
all those Caucasian kids speaking Mandarin are so cute!
i'm embarrassed by my own Mandarin.

i'm kinda feeling pissed with my lecturer. he doesnt know how to help us at all. and the assignment's due at such a weird time. 3pm on friday. that would mean i have to hand in on thursday. goodness. should i actually skip lesson on tuesday just to finish it?

and the drama unrolled last week was: the lecturer has the cheek to inform us that he has a list of students who need not study this module. BUT. he will only release the list this week. wth. whats the point in doing so? tuesday's his lesson. friday's the assignment due. by then, most of us would have nearly completed his assignment. it would be a blow to those who were told that they were not in the module.

GOODNESS! i hate this module lar! hmph!
is it related to what i'm studying for?

i'm gona bring the assignment to work to complete while the boss' away.

2009-03-28T22:03:00.002+08:00

woots! i'm changing my lifestyle!
first step - started to exercise. hope it doesnt stop.
second on my list - sign up for another dance course.
third - aerobics/yoga.
fifth - still pending.

support me all!
all these on top of my work, studies and assignments. wahaha.

i supported Earth Hour, what about you?

side note: thanks for being so kind and nice. but i am starting to be afraid of your kindness. its abit too much.

2009-03-22T12:24:00.003+08:00

what a night!

i thought i was able to make it to another party. i ws wrong. miscalculations.

i would not want to take NR anymore alone anymore. its scary!
i even got cheated of $3.00!

i couldnt figure which part of the country i was in and almost ended up in tears.
i dont even dare to get down to an umfamiliar place.
thanks to those who saw my FB status and responded.
it made me feel safe.
and sorry to keeping you all awake waiting for my good news.

2009-03-21T14:57:00.003+08:00

just random updates.

monday's half day leave and rushing around did not accomplish the tasks to be done. and my efforts were unappreciated in the end. the dance lesson with little brother cheered me-self up.

tuesday to thursday's were supposed to be lessons yet i left during the break, just to go out. nly staying for full class on wednesday out of guilty conscience.
from changi airport to pubbing to un-Popeye-ing at Kampong Glam.
and the thursday turned sour halfway through. damn, i didnt meant to cry in front of everyone. but jokes were too overboard. and that trigger was all i need to that emotional outburst. thanks for the half consolations and half laughing at me.

yesterday's leave was well spent. sentosa with the "picnic" and the $1.80 chicken rice. the lazybums at coffeebean and aimless tram rides. than back to civilisation to career fair and food fair. followed by supper and a visit to dearest ivy's haunted house after much blanks to the next pitstop for 3 hours.

i'm excited about tonight!

2009-03-21T14:45:00.002+08:00

our recent meetups have let us to feel that our activities have been circling around the same old things - eat, movie or chill. is this due to us stepping into the working society, thus turning into boring souls? i hope its not that.

its always easy to propose a meetup yet to get things planned aint easy feat.
take heed, when one dont reply an sms, dont hope they'll come.
be grateful to those who reply to reject politely.

friends who i meet frequently, lets go explore around the island on foot and public transport, a bonus when one's driving. limiting ourselves to the regular activities will bring upon a stale life.

i can say all these, yet the participants must be willing. thats the main problem.
objections? let me know.

2009-03-16T00:12:00.002+08:00

2 days straight. i have done my best to avoid. and when i thought i was lucky, i was proved wrong.
the first greeting was a definite turn off. i should say thank you right?

IT fair was as expected sardine packed and it gives a headache. don't go if you've nothing to buy.
next bonus will be kept for the next IT fair. will work hard for my aims.

anticipating the long weekend. but the pocket's burning a big hole.

la-ko-pi anyone?

2009-03-14T15:26:00.003+08:00

you know your day is screwed even before it has even started when you hear naggings and fire spitting outside you safe heaven room.

you know that it is none of your business and you will get into deep shit when you step in to interfere.

however, you also know that you are at the brim of controlling those frustrations inside you.

and you know you have joined in the fire spittings when you opened the cap of your frustration bottle.

you know you very much hate the after effects and that it brings your mood a few notches down.

you have regretted your actions but you are still brooding and fuming that you wont want to say you are sorry.

after all these, you wish you have somewhere to go.

deep down..
you know your eyes are too dry for tears, you know that alcohol is not the right poison for you, and you know that no amount of laps in the pool will drown feelings. you know that after taking mindless walks you will still be holding on to the key that will lead you back to where you belong - home.

2009-03-11T23:13:00.002+08:00

being condemned and deemed as redundant.
giving nonsense to senile old man.
i do sense myself getting better.
at least getting recognised.
showing results in work.

recruitment agency called. i rejected the offer.
in contemplation. but looking at the market, i have no confidence that i'll land on my dream job any sooner. for the money, the bonus thats drawing near, i hope thats enough to let me hang on to.

looking back, its nearly one year of being in the workforce. neither short nor long period. thats really fast. 010408, april fool, officaly in the workforce with a fixed income.

has work changed me?

2009-03-09T14:50:00.002+08:00

verbal abuses. slashed all over.
yeah. i let you rant. but you all have crossed the line.
just because i am dumb and naive, that doesnt mean that you all can stomp all around me.
you all are just fakes.

2009-03-07T15:25:00.003+08:00

dear friends.
drink in moderation. take care of your own body. rest early.
sleep and health is very important to one.
you can be tough now but its harmful to the body, mind and soul.

so.. cut down on daily late nights out and booze ^-^

from yours truly..
also a reminder to myself.

2009-03-05T00:29:00.002+08:00

literally straining my neck and limbs to reach ------ FRIDAY.

ivy's house was real spooky that i have to cling on to her for dear life with the hair standing on ends. after that reached home in the wee hours of the morning to a funeral under the block. thats a creepy tuesday night.

life is great when
sitting with great friends to share the laughters and sorrrows, will the hours away, with no thoughts of the morrow.

2009-03-02T01:32:00.002+08:00

this time round, pouring out to another backfired.
it unraveled the mystery to the cause of the recent serious bouts of emotional fluctuations.

my body clock has gone haywired.
all thanks to weekends.
at this hour, i'm still glued to the telly.
and not forgetting a long work day ahead.

martell's better than chivas.

2009-02-28T13:00:00.003+08:00

thanks for showing care and concern, even in a way i find it harsh.
i know its for the best of me.

i promise not to smoke.

2009-02-26T17:21:00.002+08:00

busy busy bumble bee.

to you, you and you! fcuk off will you? don't get your nosey ass into trivial matters. chicken backside. er xin da bian.

i like the work pace now. able to block out noises.

i wouldn't be hurt.

side note: i'm keeping my fingers cross on our discussed plans. let me go please!!

never get enough of sweet little notes ^-^

2009-02-25T16:32:00.004+08:00

i am abit bored with my stale daily life.
there's a part of me that wants to leave on the next flight out to Pattaya for BUNGEE JUMP!

what will happen if i am more than abit bored?
thoughts of skydiving? parachuting?

counting down to 1 more hr before i get released from my "jail".

i can foresee walking in the rain again. YIPPEE!!

sneak preview of the pink lady.
do wash your eyes after that ^-^

bye earthlings.

2009-02-25T00:09:00.001+08:00

歌手：s.h.e 专辑：我的电台 fm s.h.e

612星球

满园玫瑰我以为找到我那一朵
认真爱了却狠狠刺伤我的双手
责备什么人也没有用
玫瑰都红难免看错

望着天空爱是风活在童话里头
小王子说有些事流浪过才会懂
原来每颗心都有个洞
找不到真爱会一直寂寞

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属于我的612星球
好让我忍着痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
想遇见我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我

擦干眼泪一个人漂流在这宇宙
小王子说爱一定开在某个角落
不想相爱的人那么多
我会幸福吗在什么时候

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属于我的612星球
好让我忍着痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
想遇见我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属于我的612星球
好让我忍着痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱着我的所有
想遇见我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我

2009-02-23T00:09:00.003+08:00

goodness. i spent the weekends at home rotting. and now its coming to an end??!!
NNNNNNNOOOO!!

i even miss a bdae party just to rot at home! believable?

school's starting! yippee! new classmates?

the later i sleep, Monday will come later ^-^

2009-02-20T16:40:00.003+08:00

saw her and i'll hear from you.
hear from you and i'll see her.
all within the same week. wth.
i really admire your never say die spirit.
but it doesnt work on me anymore.
goodbye.

2009-02-19T21:26:00.002+08:00

its better that they stay away. far far away from the office.

damn the taxi driver that caused my meal to overturn.
auto cabs are the best!

i cannot live by one day without being clumsy. bleah =P

few peeps have commented that i'll end up with a malay man. -.-"
i HAS no idea where that notation came from. enlighten me.

2009-02-18T09:29:00.004+08:00

yeah. i was emo-ing over the past week. i admit. i could not pinpoint the exact cause that triggered the overflow of emotions. its just like the volcano with the outburst of the hot lava.
it was to the extend that i had wanted to shut the whole world out.

i apologise to those whom i have met and shown my ugly side to.
i did not mean to unleash that side of me.
no hard feelings.

yesterday's hangout definitely lifted my mood. i'm swinging back to normal.

last day of enjoyment at work. i'm cherishing every seconds and minutes =)

planning a diet and exercise regime. need to put my life back on track. before i lose myself completely.

health is signaling orange light. time to do something.

2009-02-16T17:07:00.004+08:00

i want to get out of the office building right now. just to be in the rain. i need to be in the rain.
F*. i feel like shit today and its just the start of the week.

a drink, a stick and a walk under the rain might be the remedy.
and maybe the sunflower.

2009-02-15T20:06:00.003+08:00

intuition or just wild thoughts? i reckon its the latter.

thanks for the abundant company on vday. vday like no other ^-^
too bad i did not take a picture with the cute little one.

little nyonya is addictive. i'm glued hourly. episode to episode.

何时才能遇见对的人?
我... 怕了.

2009-02-12T16:27:00.002+08:00

goodness. what a day.

sleeping for 3 hours can really cause me a mental breakdown.
i don't want to chit chat till late already lar. grrr.
straight home to replenish the sleep today.

i'm broke. all my money has gone to the "savings" account.
in search for a sugar daddy urgently.

strawberry shortcake and sunflower to brighten up my day please!

2009-02-12T01:23:00.002+08:00

i've no idea why i've that mental loss over my primary school days.
after like 9 years and them finding me back and givng me glimpses to my old times,
its nostalagic.
i am practically opening my memory boxes in my head right now and looking back into the past.
more catching ups to come ^-^

2009-02-11T11:04:00.004+08:00

sneaking another post while the boss' away.

found my baju and the to-go-along for the wedding!
MACdee lunch!
benjamin button later!
triple happiness ^-^

shakes head to.....................
being locked out of office and my house because i forgot to bring my keys!
spending nearly an hour under the block to wait for saviors to come home
how pitiful ='(

i'm suddenly feeling scared and jittery. like some premonition feeling. unexplainable.

2009-02-10T09:40:00.002+08:00

i feel bad not sending my brother to school this morning. i shall TRY to wake up earlier tomorrow.

left my keys at home and could not get in the office when i reached early.
this happens like every week -.-"
time to eat some gingko.
i cant go home early today! or i'll be locked out =(

just realised i've two events that clash on the same day! SHIT!
bday party and paintball. which one to say no to??

jac's got her list of 21st bdae wishlist up. maybe its time for me to do that too.. hee.

think its time for work. ciao.

2009-02-09T20:52:00.002+08:00

I WANT KBOX AGAIN LA!
after exams boredom.
cheated by mom to come home early.
last day of CNY and i cant find the full moon!

goodnight earthlings!
something's wrong with my tummy.

2009-02-08T22:39:00.003+08:00

no idea what my mum got me into.
ZZZZZ.
but she's sponsoring. so hope its fun.

13 missed calls and 5 smses.
thanks for showing your concern while i was bedridden and away from the cell.

vday's coming. may all singles enjoy this day =)
just another day for me.

wedding's in a week's time. what should i wear?
i need some help.

I'm in love with dimples, do you have one?

2009-02-07T00:43:00.002+08:00

EXAMS' OVER!!
although it doesnt seem to be done well, its a relieve that its all over. i am luckier than other classmates. they still have another project submission to go. goodie luck to them all!

thanks to "jesus kenneth" for his lady luck. it does help not only in exams but also other areas. at least i ran into good things after that =)

i'm gona catch up on alot of things that were left unattended to!

month of february - BROKE!
one 21st down, 2 more to go.
erm, mine is in may, everyone start saving money!! including myself =)

2009-02-04T23:27:00.000+08:00

my primary school classmates found me =)
one by one by one. lol.
it wowed me in an undescribable way.
sadly, catching up can only be done after exams.

i am feeling all sorts after CNY.
struggling to keep myself together.
it must be the withdrawal symptoms to the world outside.

currently: emo-ing.
been so long since i've done that.

its so lonely to be studying alone. no motivations at all.
classmates are all like me, juggling work with cramming. difficult to study together.

scrolling through my phone list and i realised, i dont know who i can call to talk to in the middle of the night after too much cramming. i am just afraid i will be scolded upside down by causing disturbance to others' sweet dreams. haha.

maybe some kind souls will just sms me to let me know that you are awake at unearthly times?

2009-01-23T14:59:00.002+08:00

i haven do my own spring cleaning.
i have to finish my 4,000 words report during the new year.
i have to shop for clothes.
i have to go bai nian.
i have to collect red packet.

heehee.

i want to go out for fun lar! stupid school. make us so miserable.
with classes almost everyday, time management is really important. therefore, i've done shopping whenever i can. like using after work time to shop before lesson, and only reaching school at 8. wahahahha. i'm such a good student. just in time for the exam tips =)

i am like really unlucky.
why is it that we agree that things come to an end, it will not happen.
the day right after we agree on lets not be friends.
two consecutive days of bumping into the related things. grr.
first was you. the next was your gf.
is singapore so small??

2009-01-18T12:51:00.003+08:00

truth and lies.
its becoming a challenge to sieve through your words.
to hide one truth, you need so many lies to cover it. why cant there be truth right from the start?
aren't you tired of covering your own ass always?

guess from the first contact moment till now, the only thing that is true from you would be your name. that's humiliating to know.

liar liar pants on fire. i'm waiting for the moment to come.
BLEAH!

2009-01-15T01:08:00.002+08:00

no amount of rantings and complains wil solve the problem of me having to rush my assignments within the weekends.

i am losing the strength to smile and gaining the strength to frown.

i miss hanging out with friends and talking crap till the wee hours.
now: sitting in front of the computer till the wee hours to squeeze my brain juices.

i miss FUN.
now: slogging.

for a brighter future, i shall strive on.

I WANA GO HOLIDAY AGAIN!

2009-01-13T23:37:00.003+08:00

no increment this year. shitty shit.
only 13th month which is like pro-rated and also angbao.
"wonderful" company i have.

those sacarstic remarks that was given and those hidden meanings. i was polite enough not to say nasty things back. wtf. sickening bullshit. everyone knows your wife's the best employee la!

screw the school. screw the australia system. now my assignments are all jam packed. exams are also packed. no time for breather.

screw you. i freaking hate you. take advantage. just a stupid fool and knowing it all along.

i am in a cranky and lousy mood. i would love to skin someone alive. anyone?

2009-01-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

first day of the week. and mumsy dropped a bomb. thanks alot mum!
i even gave her support and encouraged her. -.-""""

basically now, i have to support myself.
there'll be the monthly school fees and bills to pay.
giving of allowance. etc.
scrimp and save shall be my motto from now on!
no more splurging on food, no impulsive shopping, no clubbing, no drinking, no cabbing, and the no list goes on! sobs!

life shall just be mundane from now till July 2010. its all about studies and work.

i am not grumbling. i aint complaining either. i am just wishing i have more money. and strike lottery!

hopefully boss will give me the good news that i will get an increment during tomorrow's meeting.
*crossing my fingers and praying hard*

2009-01-11T23:06:00.003+08:00

tomorrow's the day my bosses will decide on the amount of increment, 13th month bonus and the CNY ang bao.

may i be blessed with more money!

after getting the money and spending it on the what nots, i shall wave goodbye to the company. that is if i can find a job.

the next few weeks would be hectic with two huge reports and examinations.

at the time when you are really poor and short of time, take 5 mins to sit down with someone to enjoy a piece of old chang kee chicken wing.

2009-01-10T00:24:00.004+08:00

oh gosh! its been a tiring week for me with no sufficient rest. and i'm lucky enough to meet my monthly aunt. imagining dozing everywhere you go and at work with just a blink of an eye. lol!

after the few weeks of fun, it was difficult to bring myself back to serious business - school work.
the whole week of work, school and home for assignment makes me feel like a dull Jill. how nerdy.

school's gona be real crazy. 2 weeks of rushing assignments before CNY. and after CNY would be examinations. CNY doesnt seem fun anymore.

CNY drawing near and no shopping done yet. may some money drop from the sky.

i have work phobia. phoia of my boss. i get cold feet have to get a grip of myself before going into the office to report to him. i even rehearse my speech before heading into the office so that i wont blabber. i should toughen myself up than soften. soft = weAK = TARGET = BULLIED.
i'm just praying he allows me to go Vietnam for the exhibition is March.

*i woke up to find Edward Cullen looking at me =P
off to Twilight dreams.

2009-01-07T23:02:00.002+08:00

i have to tolerate my boss. his mood swings and name callings.

working so hard for him doesnt mean getting into his good shoes.

unappreciated. tears rolling back in instead of out.

every of his mood swings makes me more determined to leave. in spite of the bad economy.

i shall fight on till i get another job.
i really want that job. faster give me a call!

2009-01-01T10:36:00.002+08:00

ITS YEAR 2009!!

goodbye to the bad of 2008. lock the good memories of 2008.
welcome 2009 with open arms =)
the year i'm turning 21!!

too fast! too fast! scary!

good things are coming my way this year!
yup.. 1st gd news right in the morning.. hee.. elated!

i'm cracking my brain for a new year resolution now....

1st: to change job. i want a job that is related to what i study!
2nd: get at least a Credit for all modules. aiming for Distinction!
3rd: Have loads of fun!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

2008-12-28T23:19:00.002+08:00

don't say you miss me. idiot.

freaking bastard.

i am not your toy.

don't come and go as you please.

don't sweet talk me anymore.

2008-12-26T15:17:00.002+08:00

tis' the season to be jolly! lalalalalalalala~~

enjoyable xmas holi.
thanks to those who make it happen and those who were there.
and the well wishes!

i wish xmas holi is longer. like maybe 5 days at least?

i need a holiday retreat again!

2008-12-18T09:43:00.002+08:00

just a spare for your hideaway from your real life, am i?

when one's healing, there's bound to be another setback

2008-12-12T11:19:00.001+08:00

holiday not enough.

school's fun but assignments are coming in. Events and more events.

Santa please send me a gift.

2008-12-01T09:52:00.001+08:00

friday please come faster!

i need that holiday getaway!

2008-11-19T10:08:00.002+08:00

confessions.

i am bored with this position i am holding.
i want to change job.
i am suffering at work. by the bullies.
i am tired of painting a happy face in front of those colleagues. all those name-callings and hurtful words they spit out everyday are filling me to the brim. to the extend that i am afraid to go to work.

i am unsure of how long i can survive anymore.

any shoulders to lean on?

2008-11-17T10:00:00.002+08:00

whats the purpose of telling me those things? updating me with your life happenings?
it just makes me plain miserable.

congratulations to you. anyway.

asshole.

2008-11-13T13:27:00.004+08:00

the last meetup.
no courage to even look you in the eyes to bid farewell.

time to get it over.
take care always.
the promise - friends.

just a sense of loss.
no tears. no aches.
have i become heartless?

2008-10-28T16:53:00.003+08:00

a goodbye.

i thank you for telling me earlier. before i fall in too deep.

all the best and thank you for wishing me well.

time to erase away the trails.

2008-10-22T20:43:00.003+08:00

bad things happen in trios.
work, home and personal.

buckets of tears left me hollow and none the better.

the blow that was inevitable but came at the wrong time. i chose to be a weakling and coward. not being truthful, saying it doesnt matter to me at all. who am i lying to?

argh!

was a nightmarish day.
time to lock this closet and banish it to the dark.

2008-10-05T21:46:00.002+08:00

a pair of $7.50 socks does not mean that it has a longer lifespan than a pair of $2.00 socks.
its the buyer's decision between comfort and its lifespan.

-

at work, my side job is not only to troubleshoot computers,
i also need to troubleshoot the boss.

-

ever since Singapore organized the F1, Singapore's noise pollution increased.
drivers drive their vehicles hard and rough,
blaring music from their vehicle engines and tires.
and it is not only happening in town areas, but in the hearts of the neighborhood as well.
vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
they go.
in the wee hours of the day.

2008-09-30T15:26:00.002+08:00

guilty as charged.

i shall live up to my promise.

never ever to touch the toxic sticks again!

i am sorry i even started doing so and am sorry to disappoint all.

curiosity kills the cat.. but i wont let that happen.

enough of curiosity and time to lock the dirt up!

2008-09-18T13:59:00.002+08:00

suffering from writer's blog. logging into blogger and clueless of what to write about.

guess i do not see the need and purpose of noting down the daily life anymore.

2008-09-02T10:11:00.002+08:00

i need a holiday.

sleep ain't enough anymore.

i am so greedy.
wanting to study well during my 2 years degree course.
wanting to enjoy everyday.
wanting to work my butts off to earn more money.
wanting to spend more time with family.
wanting to fulfill my wish list.
and the want lists continues.

result - not enough rest.

time to rethink the life i want to pursue.

2008-08-25T12:15:00.003+08:00

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows! with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget!
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend wi! ll be there.
True friendship never ends.
Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.

If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.
A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come true. LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.

Send this on to everyone special in your life, even the people who really make you mad sometimes. Remember, every minute spent angry is sixty seconds of happiness wasted.
____________! ________________________
To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident...

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics

Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

2008-08-22T23:06:00.002+08:00

such sinfulness.

good food from 7th month prayers.
baby Cuba cigar stick from boss.
cig stick from colleague dearest.
and not forgetting the champagne and beer.

time check, 2 plus till work ends, with goodie good weather along with a little drizzle.

and i actually dared to ask boss to allow us to play cards while the bosses enjoy their cigars and champagne. it caused a big hoo-haa with the fellow colleagues.

its the bonding sessions that one will feel part of the family.
and its also one that should have less often if not i will drink and smoke.

no, i aint proud that i was puffing away even on just two sticks.

Wanshi, you have gotta stop this wild and adventurous lifestyle of yours soon.

2008-08-14T16:36:00.003+08:00

whats the use of cars when it always get caught in traffic jams and accidents?
god! the number of vehicles on the road seemed to have grown in 100s per week.
one area jam, every other areas jammed up too!

!£&*^*("!^$(^!£$*(^£!(*^)*&("%!£)&*%$!£&*%$!"

had to hopped out and say bye to being on the road and take the on time most of the times train to work. poor dad continues to be stuck on the road with others.

i am being cranky these days.

i am afraid i might faint one day somewhere. just like what almost happened in office.
time to visit the good ol' doc

2008-08-12T21:39:00.002+08:00

experiencing writer's blog.

definitely loads zipping around the mind. yet, i cant string them into words.

few good ways to vent out:
- visit the salon for a cut, opting for treatment when the mood strikes
- hit the malls and purchase something that is irresistible in a certain manner
- laugh and giggle like one has missing nerves
- treat oneself to a good meal or dessert, forgetting the calories and kilos
- immerse in work. 7 days a week. till you would not even know the days and dates.

not ready to face anyone:
- appear offline everywhere
- never touch the phones
- lay on bed under the blanket
- take the long quiet route home
- keep one's head down in their own office cubicle

gosh, i just have the right weird and crappy ideas.

self torture.

sometimes the series of events happening between two individual beings are too much coincidental and linked. is this termed as linked in the heart and soul?

2008-08-04T16:44:00.002+08:00

being the assistant to one fuss pot boss aint that great at times.
the times i spent weeping at my desk or toilet made me just want to pack my bags and leave.

but its those colleagues that i cant bear to leave. the immediate pillars of support.
nearly half a year of working with them and they are simply irreplaceable.
the daily bouts of laughters, burpings, card games and the nonsense, i dont suppose i can get enjoy these anywhere else.

with them, i'll strive on and leave only after the completion of my degree course.

gosh, 2 more years!

my brain is getting fuzzy and wozzy with not enough sleep and rest. bear with me.
i miss alot of my dearest friends. i wana meet them up one by one. time to look at the planner =D

2008-07-27T10:34:00.002+08:00

who knew that 2 days of MIA would lead to flooded emails, flooded missed calls and messages.
NO:- i was not kidnapped.
i was a busy bee for two straight days
i went home to bed straight after my hectic work load.
my parents did see me at home.

sincerely apologize to those concerned. the clever one did the right thing by ringing up my office.

finally a day of rest to recuperate before another working week starts again.
*i can smell the $$ in my account soon!*

am i getting rusty in the brain or what? i did not understand what my lecturer was saying on my first day of school. but i aint the only one... so its the lecturer's problem.

on a side note, all that getting nervous and wanting to skip class was unnecessary. lecturer had an ever smiling face and i made new friends! a definite good start for a school term.

time to chase off the 2 weeks cough.

2008-07-20T23:39:00.002+08:00

sick all week.
immune system is going down ever since i started work.

rest doesnt seem to come into my mind.
working two months straight daily without a proper rest seemed to be taking a toll on me.
amidst all the working, was able to slot in swims, badminton, movies, meetups, dinners.. blahs.
i'm such so "hardworking"

school's starting this friday. gosh, i feel nervous already. wonder what is the age group of my fellow classmates, how's the lecturers like.. and the whole chunky list of worries.
hmm, i'll just bring an open mind on friday.

its just coincidence that its like this, not telepathy.

2008-06-22T00:17:00.002+08:00

I'VE GOT MAIL!!

THE LETTER FINALLY ARRIVED.

erm.. congrats to myself? kinda weird.

accepted to study what i want. module exemptions included.

able to study. the thought of studying along with lectures, tutorials, assignments and examinations again turns me into jelly and gives me the shudders.

the big million dollar question is - Can i cope with it?
i will just let nature take its course now.

soon, the freedom and almost daily routine of heading to anywhere and stay out late after work will have to cease. studies will have to be slotted into my planner. it'll be less colorful.

need all the support from everyone.

moving on...

friday night's gathering. the seniors of NYP judo. elated to see them again and happy to see that all are doing well. the initial thoughts of not being able to carry a conversation with them immediately flew out of my mind when i met with them.

jason's daughter, jean, is so adorable. i made her laugh! not like dennis shu shu. hee. managed to play with her before she got sleepy.

Balcony's food ain't that awesome, especially the cheesecake. organizer left early and we were left with nowhere to go. some left off early too. the remaining of us headed to East Coast to drink, calling the day over at around 3am.

this gathering makes me miss the times when they were still around in judo.

2008-06-20T16:06:00.002+08:00

when one starts working, days pass in a blur. almost everyday seems to be alike.

got busied daily with activities. even if they are so impromptu.

like the trip to airport for Popeye's and some walking around, trying to be tourist.
and the Hulk movie and dinner
and the swim
and the bedok 85.

next week.. expecting exciting trips, great meetups...

misses all =)

2008-06-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

given the green lights.

please, don't let anything happen to my plans again.

2008-06-14T09:36:00.002+08:00

friday the thirteen. the ultimate black friday.

weeks, days and hours of grueling and mulling. thoughts, plans, calculations and many other considerations. seemed to gel up nicely in a package. almost pieced up jigsaw puzzle.

and than.

sudden unexpected call. dreadful. those words that came from the other side of the phone crashed one's day. words were too cruel. and with those simple words. the jigsaw puzzle ain't gonna be pieced up.

totally heartbreaking. ripped off the hopes and the plans that one have of a prettier future.
speechless on this side of the line with only the final forced mumblings of, 'OK'.

sealed fate.

thanks to colleagues for their listening ears. thanks to ky n xy for their listening ears, understanding and advices. thanks for the wonderful dinner that definitely was a good distraction to what that have to be faced.

a hell of a roller coaster ride.

2008-06-12T16:12:00.003+08:00

gastric problem. mc-ed and not resting but out on the streets wiz ky.

klunch.
applied for degree course. finally.
shopped.
dinner at ding tai fung.
haircut.
shopped.
home.

its good to get mc once in awhile. so that i can accomplish so many things in a day=)

life's good. delicacies almost every time i'm out. great companionship. great times. work's boring at times but still enjoyable.

hope everyone's like me.. enjoying and be happy =)

2008-06-09T11:08:00.003+08:00

mind boggling. brain wrecking.

choosing the best degree course ain't easy.

yet another gluttons week. mainly japanese cuisines.

mon - ichiban sushi dinner wiz xy n jo.

tues - Shokudo dinner treat by Dennis shu shu with ivy and jessica. delicious food, abit weird soup, great recommendation of plum soda by dennis shu shu, great company. the waiter that dennis shu shu chatted up with. story telling that almost caused us to miss our last transport home.

wed - MDIS trip for course details with xy. dinner at Thai Express. tom yum! not so nice pineapple soda. too difficult to drink avocado blend. big bowl of soup with little ingredients.

thurs - Murdoch Uni seminar talk wiz xy. bread papa and old chang kee to starve off the hunger. left halfway during the seminar. desserts at bugis street.

fri - shopping at Bugis Street wiz ky n ivy. dinner at MOF. treat from ivy. love the japanese concept of the outlet. delicacies. oishi! most prob will frequent there. hee. glass door of espirit outlet cracked into bits.

sat - day in the library with ky to make a decision on the course to take.

2008-06-01T15:35:00.002+08:00

week pass by like bullet train.

the glutton week.
mon - ms. ayam penyet at foodcourt. swensen's sundae.
tues - bedok 85. otah, porridge, stingray, chix wings, oyster omelette, carrot cake, riceballs.
wed - fish n chips at food court after badminton
thurs - soy milk and tau huey at rocher road after shopping with colleagues.
fri - mum's delicacy - curry chicken
sat - mos side kicks. bbq food.
sun - plain porridge

call me a glutton.

searching for part time degree courses. gosh.. the problems faced are much worse than choosing what diploma course to take.

wed shall be badminton day. shall schedule myself for swimming after the monthly cycle. shall catch up on the new released movies. shall purchase my hard disk at sim lim's sale.

random..
people change. some change for the good, some maintain, whereas the others for the bad. recent incidents has revealed the ugly sides of certain people. one cannot fathom how the other thinks, the reasons and causes of their actions.

i have no control over these issues, but how should you tell the other party that you are sick, tired and irritated of their actions? that you will one day find yourself shunning away from the certain someone just because the thought of them irks you? because you are afraid that the meetup would just turn sour in the end?

not that i am saying i am the perfect one here. i would love to hear from people what i can improve on. so if there's anything anyone wants me to improve on, just tell me. i will be more than grateful to you.

2008-05-26T11:33:00.001+08:00

long weekend jus came and went.

awesome friday. Graduation 2008. so great to be able to see most of them.

the gown wearing. the hogging of mirrors. the queue up. the unglam behaviors with the gown on. the ceremony. the scared of falling down while in the gown parts. the smiles and a laughters.
lynn's family supported me.
parents fly my kite. so my acting 'parents', jere and ky - came. thanks for their support. i ended up sitting with them after getting my cert and introduced the people of SBM to them. lolz.

reception was so great. the cam-whoring sessions. the never smile that never ceased away from my face. hearts lynn's family! her mum even invited me to their house anytime. haha.
cam-whored with so many cameras. just waiting for them to send me.

too bad cant mingle around for too long cos some people were chasing me outta school. bah.

delicious curry fish head dinner at food court at meridien hotel. the usual gang with addition of leo and joseph. with their favorite cockles eating session thereafter. i still cant bring myself to eat the cockles. it brings about the nauseous feeling.

guess that night wasnt a great gathering. retired home unexpectedly early.

2008-05-21T16:47:00.005+08:00

the long weekend. full time enjoyment tho it aint enough.

hit the BIG Fat Two + 0. shucks. thats call old. kidult as mentioned by cl=)

thanks lynn for welcoming me to her house. thanks for the hair service. thanks to her family for being so fun.

thanks for organising the simple but so ma fan dinner. thanks for the sweet pressie. thanks for the well wishes by all.

the runs to the toilet. boo.

MOS night was happening. met up with the babe and she's getting on well in life. good for her. certain things happened. memorable and not so memorable. thanks for the awesome night.

Sun was IVP at RP. got lost in the oh-so-big school. fierce lady never give proper instructions. handsome guys on the tatami. 5 out of 5 popcorns matches at times. i miss judo!

dinner at CWP Siam Kitchen. fan shu shu came. sighting of ew toilets. runs to the toilet. there goes another day.

mon cldn make it to char's hsewarming. cos of the runs. boo. hope she likes the pressie tho. dinner with family and relatives. the number of gatherings with maternal relatives are increasing ever since.... kinda good.

i am in no mood to work after the long hols. i cant wait for graduation ceremony to come. gona meet all the long missed friends.

i am contemplating to change a job. like really really.

the long time never update pictures.

2008-05-16T14:25:00.003+08:00

drained out while enjoying oneself. not reaching home before the clock strikes 12.

yesterday was colleagues day. lady boss bought Secret Recipe choc cake and everyone celebrated my bird day. sweet =) i became a 'HR Executive' and signed with a Mont Blanc pen!! woots! all thanks to boss. the 2 siao char bos in the office couldnt stop laughing over fixing a printer. out with the ex and current colleagues after work. ayam penyet and coffeebean. all the gossips and dark secrets. tsk tsk.

wed badminton in sch. lucky us that the court wasnt used for ccas. blaring lights that cause starry eyes. funny stunts that we all do. i couldnt stop laughing and was easily distracted. i wana learn wushu!! dinner at s-11. i did not succumb to their cockles eating. the smell and the blood made me wana puke. anthony's gang joined us and left after their meal ended. fast eaters. scott came for awhile and we were off home. we should have badminton every week =)

tues met up with lynn for graduation gown collection. met longtime no see classmates. gowns with paddings that go over the shoulders. ew. ate the long time never eat food - MAC!! sinful and delicious. glutton =) malay session with the lao si who laughs at her student. took a few pics to change our wallpapers.

mon is dedicated for swimming. swim gives me a peaceful mind. makes me feel 'balanced'. feels so good to be in the water, to be free like a fish.

now, sitting in the near to empty office with 3 other colleagues. we are all in the holiday mood! gonna step into a new phase of my life in................................. around less than 9 hours! OMG! thanks for those who remembered.

2008-05-11T22:16:00.003+08:00

wanshi feels funny as she has been in good spirits for quite a long period of time.
she aint complaining and whining about it.
lets call these days, rainbow days.

sunday family morning. mother's day. mum got her present yesterday and her meal last week. she is happy. i am sad and broke.

just yesterday, i packed myself with gatherings and a meet-up.

the broomstick with his updates. amazingly insane news updates. not for the weak hearts.

eliza and meiyi. the "long lost friends" meetup. too short but their companionship brings back old school memories. thanks meiyi for the redang key chain and the unread letter. sweet =)

lastly with the usual clique. nearly full attendance. scott's back. minds cafe. we girls got bored easily over mind boggling and mind wrecking games. the last game was much more enjoyable. short visit from jane with her friend. a few pictures taken. i looked fat. ultimate.

movie at the cathay. what happens in vegas. love comedy. i want Vegas! i want jackpot!
supper at somerset. cockles again. i never eat! not tempted at all.
just drank. cabbed home.
should organise more gatherings.

out with chin leng on friday. felt so bad about having to wait so long for me to get to town. kobayashi dinner. shopped for presents. amazing charcoal wonders. hope it provides the stated effects. efficient wrapping service. we both were so amazed by the lady's skills. we shall meet-up again for threading, indo-chine and giraffe. keke.

ws wants to club. maybe a little bit of drinking too.
ws wants to widen her social circle.
ws wants more money.
ws wants more cheery moments.

ws hopes that she never make the wrong decision. *just dont end up being a dead workaholic.

2008-05-07T10:27:00.002+08:00

cheery hearty mood =)
for days. do hope it stays long enough.

got rid of my lazy bug and started exercising. run and swim. more running today.

it beats going out to spend money on munchies and shopping.

but, the promise of no more shopping broke.
impulsed shopping. i just cant resist.
someone should just lock up my money.

if it rains, i wana walk under it.

the randomness of this entry shows that i am way too relax in the office.

office work can be most of the times, stale and boring. tsk tsk.
boss should give me some tasks to do.
i am not meant to be a deskbound person.

2008-05-04T20:24:00.002+08:00

in a hearty mood=)

this morning met up with lynn and received half dozen of donuts and anna sui coin purse. sweet and nice of her to get it for me while she's at batam. loves her new hairdo and color. hope to meet up with her soon.

had a pre-mother's day and me birthday celebration. tho the food wasnt that fantastic, its the gathering that matters. popped over to grandma's house to clear some stuffs. i dont suppose there will be many gatherings in that house from now on.

shopping spree yesterday with ivy. far east plaza for the whole day. fruitful day. she with her small shopping bag that could be placed in her bag. me with my bags of victory goods. i am satisfied. definitely. =)

my aim - gucci or lv handbag next month. woots. here i come!!

the supposed hair trimming trip on friday turned out not to be so simple after all. the hair's changed, yet again. guess that explains the uplifiting mood.

tomorrow's back to work again.

=) or =(

2008-05-02T10:56:00.015+08:00

wednesday was crazy night with ivy. town first. main aim was to shop but nothing fanciful caught our eyes. ended up with 2 only bottles of Elizabeth Arden fragrance. couldnt find the shops that i was looking for.

hungry us headed for newton circus. seems like my weekly dining place. oops. thats when things got a teeny weeny bit horrendous.

main purpose of our journey there was to eat cockles.

but................ we ended up with fried oyster omelette, hokkien mee, chicken wings, sotong, sugarcane juice, mango aloe vera dessert.

and not forgetting our main star - cockles.

we did manage to finish most of the food. with only a few mouthfuls of food left. are we gluttons or what?

i am swearing off newton circus for at least a month.

labour day thursday. cl, st n char. k lunch. great to be able to catch up with them. singing together without mic. after that was shopping. the tings char mentioned were so funny. many items were calling out to us to grab them. char left earlier.

headed for dinner at Nana Thai. we ended up with a table in the storeroom. the light was blinking. first time eating in a restaurant feeling so pitiful. haha. but the food made up for it. too bad we did not ask for discount.

last friday's dinner at TPY Sakura with gang. been so long since we've got such a meetup. food aint that fantastic as Orchard's. sashimi aint enough. too little time to eat before being chased out. but fantastic time for all of us.

gift for my darlings. =)

after all these events, its time to go on a diet regime.

2008-04-28T21:37:00.000+08:00

it seems that life has been pretty much stagnant and stale once one steps into the work force.

daily routine of work and home or work and hanging out with friends. not that hanging out with friends aint fun, i have always enjoyed their companion. i aint complaining about them.

it seems..........................
i am bored with working.

i have goals and dreams that i wana achieve.

like...
to study abroad in 1 to 2 years time.
to travel to a different country once a year.
to climb to a higher position in the company.

but all these needs money to be achieved and fulfilled. thats why i am holding a job.

most probably i am just a teeny weeny bored on days that is work and home, not work and play and home. that explains the unhealthy thoughts.

BLEAH!

maybe i should take a course. maybe i should get another job. maybe i should look for another part time job since mine ended on saturday.

i am crazy!

2008-04-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

got a new gadget!

LG Viewty KU990R =)

i am definitely feeling better. elated!

a small treat for myself.

reasons -
first pay check received but not credited yet.
fought a good "battle".
to stop drooling over the phone anymore.
its cheap with the ongoing promotions.
it was time to ditch the faulty Nokia phone.

the reasons can go on. bleah.

frankly, i just want to spend money.

*loves touchscreens =)

2008-04-26T18:04:00.003+08:00

screwed up my beautiful day.

i feel like a slave. call when needed, get lost when duties are fulfilled. what terms are these?

no prior discussions if i am agreeable and you may assume that i am. disrespectful.

i must have been a dumbass all along to have sacrificed so much time for you and your company.

count yourself lucky that i never tear the letter right in front of your face and treat you to a few punches.

recalling a friend mentioning to me before, "you always work and work and always get bullied."

the friend also mentioned, "try to get back at those people or not when you are in the society, you'll get bullied even more..."

this time, i retaliate. beautifully composed email that prick.

your reply, like crap. but you knew that you have lost someone valuable.

i have won. my first battle.

thanks friend for the advice given long time ago.

2008-04-19T19:24:00.003+08:00

the past week was not what it should be.

farewell to maternal grandfather. its been so long since i have seen him, and yet the last encounter was not what any one of us wished for. the peaceful look on his face provide enough reassurance to all of us that he left peacefully.

death is inevitable, yet its still hard to accept the truth. i shall brave myself to accept this type of situation.

one bad news usually does not stop at that. poor cousin had to encounter such a ruthless incident that will leave her scarred for life. heartless guy, hope he gets caught soon.

i am certified sick.

thankfully ivy asked me out. at least the week ended on a lighter note. anticipating our next week's sushi buffet. i am craving for sashimi.

i am missing everyone.

2008-04-12T20:06:00.003+08:00

met up with dearest peeps yl n dee last night. miss them tons and loads!! pasta mania to fill the tummy. with loads to catch up on. got 'chased' out of pasta mania as there are people who wanted our seats. headed for desserts but everywhere has long queue.

planted our butts finally on the sofa seats at Cosmo. dirty sofa. clueless waiter. sex on the beach with near to none alcohol. fruits platter with chocolate dip can serve up to five. chocolate ice cream for the one craving for it.

train ride home was their crazy time. with those names they came up with being disapproved by me. hurhur.

i am already missing them. clubbing next? heehee

i guess i am sick =(

2008-04-09T21:58:00.002+08:00

days without contact lens are bothersome.

as each days pass, i feel more lethargic. nights of not being able to fall asleep. glass of cold milk before bed routine begins again. fattening but thats the way to cure insomnia.

caught The Bucket List last night with friends. long time never have such the usual gang gathering. interesting movie but i love the featured destinations even more. i want to do sky diving, go to Egypt to see the pyramids, drive a Mustang.. the list goes on. long walk to newton for dinner. doesnt feel the stomach.

hopefully next week onwards the work load increase. after the charming boss leaves to go back to Germany.

2008-04-07T21:08:00.003+08:00

its monday and i was late for work again.

train accident at CCK mrt station. the train i took knocked down a man. that explains the jerk of the train before it came to an abrupt stop. further explains the scenario of the professionals trying to pull something out from under the train cabin. it shudders me that i actually walked past the cabin with the body underneath to get onto the platform.

may the guy rest in peace.

altho he gave many of us passengers a hell of trouble in finding another alternative to get to our destinations.

was 1 hour late for work. luckily boss was understanding.

2008-04-06T11:47:00.003+08:00

tomorrow's monday again. too fast.

back to school yesterday. i love painting.

town with ky. she was super duper late. dinner at food republic. to visitors' center for a leg massage. with the heels strapped on the feet daily, i should start investing in one uSqueeze.

alley bar to end off the day. new love - strawberry martini and long island tea.

with the almost weekly routine of drinking, i might have a problem here.

2008-04-04T23:52:00.003+08:00

her emotions were on the verge of making a plunge to the negative scale. but she pulled back in time to let her emotions scale back to normal.

she promised herself to empty her wallet to help the economic growth (GDP or whatever index). and she did. that brought her day to the brighter side.

she did not end up with an empty wallet. she knows about calculations, her accounts and non-impulsive purchasing.

she only ended up with her toiletries, DKNY Green Apple eau de, Daiso goodies. she meant real goodies, a big packet of sushi with the missing salmon she yearn to have.

she feels she has not done enough to help increase the economy. she wants to do more. she's off to draw up a shopping list.

all this was done without even her receiving any pay cheques yet. one would ponder how she's reach her ideal savings amount. she shares the same sentiments too.

she's looking for PC/IT/Computing courses to attend. if anyone do have any suggestions or maybe even related reference books, do let her know. much appreciated.

her graduation ceremony is 1.5 months away. interested parties to attend as a guest, do let her know so she can get the tickets for you. notwithstanding the fact that she might not be able to get the day off from work.

2008-04-03T20:05:00.002+08:00

met ivy to get her stuff last night after work. hungry us found a great place for cheap food. just noodles at suntec. set meals with free flow ice cream and drinks. yummylicious.

curb the urge to splurge. curb the alcohol crave. headed for cockles at gluttons bay. ended up more bloody than what one expects. cockles cut. ouch!

dad's a chauffeur now. sending me to work. saved almost half of the transport fees. time to spend money on office wear. nothing appeals me when i've the money to splurge. on the contrary, everything appeals when i've burnt pockets. -.-

working hard to fulfill the wishlists. tomorrow's only the 4th day of work. sobs! on the bright side, there's still time to plan the spree list for next month =)

2008-04-01T20:36:00.002+08:00

its april's fool.

turns out i got fooled. culprit - the day and its ongoings.

first day of work and i was late. screw the bus. jam packed bus. almost got off the wrong bus stop. *thoughts of taking the taxi to work everyday crosses mind*

colleagues great. malay speaking. time to take up another language. cleared table. learnt stuffs. walked around the small office. lunch box with colleagues.

got off a little office work trip outta office with colleague. not bad. cab to and fro location. cant say i hate it. back to office for more learning.

though late for work, i was allowed to go off early. hehe. with the pull of colleague.

well prepared for my swim but unpredictable weather dampen my mood. ruined my plan.

the walk home to enjoy the rain turns me into a drenched duck even with the umbrella. almost got knocked down by a driver yakking away on the phone even when it was green man.

never think that when the day starts to get better, it will stay better. its deceitful.

2008-03-31T21:31:00.004+08:00

spending two long days at home. turned out sour. boo.

things happened to make me change the hair color yet again.
something about me+bad happenings+hair always.
end --> enlighten mood.
at least better than resorting to drink.

missed out badminton with lynn. stomachache. sorry. make it up next time.

cooked tonight's dinner. applause for me as i didn burn the kitchen down and food wasnt burnt.

tomorrow's start of work.
today's end of holidays. end of freedom.
need to slog.
not excited. just dread.
hopefully colleagues are great.

the desire to get out partying still in me. bleah.

being alone lets the mind running wild. pondering over things and the whatevers. it shouldnt be this way. *drive away thoughts*

its time to grow up and outta my comfort zone.

randomness.